Wow, Rueben, thank you so much linking my story and sharing what it brings up for you. It was never my intention to set off an existential crisis and I can relate to so much of it--the clinging to the familiar safety of routine--so understandable when the world is upside down and in our case, sideways!!! It's hard to stop checking newsfeeds--is he gone yet? I write and post every day even it that may not always be the best use of my time or is getting me any closer to my goals. it is, but slowly. the familiar is easy, but not where we grow and stretch. there's the comfort zone and the panic zone. in between them is the learning zone. I'll meet you there! All the best with your quest. Please keep me posted and I'll send good energy your way!!!!